about me

i think one misconception about BPD is that people who are NON-BPD think we are "crazy", but in fact i believe that you would not be able to pick me out of a crowd as being BPD or "crazy". i tend to put on an oscar-worthy performance when needed in order to mask the pain that i feel on almost a daily basis. i would consider myself to be an average person in public - average to above-average looking 20-something, intelligent, high-paying and respectable career, fun-loving and sociable.. although the last 2 characteristics are almost always acted. i believe that i could probably be a professional actress at times with the productions i put on - i completely wear the mask. although, i'm always wondering if people can see through the facade and see the real me - the sad, lonely, confused me.