relationship ramblings

i have never known someone else who had bpd..well, not someone who i regonized as bpd or admitted it. i guess it would be pretty hard to recognize someone else as bpd when most bpds wear the mask to cover up those characteristics. i wish i knew someone else with it, so we could relate and discuss. how would two bpds get along? maybe it wouldn't work.. what about in a love relationship? would it be easier to have two bpds in a relationship because that way each person knows what the other person is going through and there is no guesswork? maybe it would have the opposite effect and be a relationship full of negativity and rage. sometimes i think i would like to find another bpd to have a relationship with. so far none of my relationships have worked out and it all goes back to one aspect - bpd. maybe i need to have a different approach and tell the person earlier on in the relationship. but would that scare them away? is it even possible to have any relationship as a person with bpd? i know i am rambling in this post and it probably doesn't make much sense. but right now i don't seem to make much sense. i just wish there was an answer to everything.