swirling

i tried to shut it down for the night, but as i was laying in bed my head was swirling with new topics to write about. see what i mean about my obsessions? blogging definitely is my new obsession. even though i have a super headache, which is making me nauseous. i cannot go to sleep yet. this is my outlet.

my boyfriend is currently ignoring me. phone calls, texts..going unanswered. but the strange thing is i'm not going into any type of rage! it's boggling my mind. i think perhaps my newfound blogging as taken priority over him. if that's the case, i will blog forever to keep my rage at bay. even though i do know that eventually, my blogging obsession will wear off and my obsession as to why he is ignoring me will gain priority.

i just don't understand how you can ignore someone you supposedly "love". if he can't deal with my issues, then he should leave me. i don't want to be kept dangling from a string wondering if he is ever going to take an interest in helping me or break it off and forget about me. if he leaves, i will find someone else to fill his spot. i always do. although this time is different. i love him much more than the others. but how can you continue to love someone who ignores you? after awhile you probably can't. hopefully soon he will realize how inconsiderate he is for ignoring me and maybe, just maybe, he will begin to understand my issues.