a new life

my new life in this new city actually started out pretty good. i was making new friends, i was having new experiences, new places to go..it was great. my boyfriend was here and i was finally living the life i wanted. well as you can probably guess, that didn't last very long. eventually the "newness" of the place wore off and the friends began to disappear. i lost my closest friend due to an incident/disagreement and with that the others went with. my boyfriend and i were back and forth, on and off, which didn't help the situation at all. i felt all alone in a far away world with no one to turn to. i'm stuck here with no where to go and fearful that if i was to make the jump and leave again, i would end up in the same position i am in now. so here i am, in a place i call a "sh*thole", blogging away my life.. and i have to admit, it's already making me feel slightly better.