Saturday, 26 March 2011

addictive behaviour

i go through addictions and obsessions like crazy. although, i have to admit, they are never really harmful. in fact, they tend to be quite harmless. for example, presently, i am having a slight blog addiction. blogging is something new to me and i am addicied for the moment. i know it may wear off soon, as so many of my addictions and obsessions do. awhile ago, i was obsessing about getting a tattoo. had one picked out, all ready to go. then the notion was gone. other addictions and obsessions that may pop up often involve food, cleaning, and ambitious ideas. i often find myself obsessing about a certain food for about a week at a time, then it's over. or all of a sudden i'll have an urge to learn to cook new fancy meals. i'm not much of a clean freak (my house is still generally clean, don't worry), but at times i will get sudden urges to do a major clean and rearrange a lot of the rooms in my house. this urge lasts usually a day and if i do not complete the clean and redecoration project that day, it will stay undone for weeks until i get the urge again. i also often get sudden ambitious urges. i do have a successful career, but sometimes i have urges to expand and be better or do side projects. i will research ideas on the internet and make notes. then, just as fast as it came, the urge flies out the window. these obsessions that swirl in and out of my brain are exhausting and disappointing at times.

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